I saw the smile drop, like a hidden glow,
It disappeared as if there is a switch you throw
To turn on the face to use when you go
Open up the door and navigate the flow
Of the situations that have brought you low
And made you reap the fields that you did not sow.
It’s like the fire inside is trying to go out
But nobody can hear you when you try to shout
You just put on your shoes and try to go about
The life to which you’re forced to be devout.
But your eyes scream out, I gotta get away
There are walls within which I loathe to stay
And though in veiled despair I walk another day
Somehow, desperately I need a way.
I see you wake up and punch in to life
Going through the day just putting in your time
And when you can you drop in your dime
To try and call up feelings of a different kind
I can’t lie, watching this it kills me.
As I go home at night to what fulfills me.
All I can do is pray that someday you’ll be
Where your eyes don’t hide the things I still see.
Because it crawls into me like it is a disease
I can’t fight it, cause all I have are hands like these
I want to grab it, but all I do is freeze,
It’s a door that’s locked and I don’t have the keys.
I see a reflection, mirrored within my care
That somewhere deep in me, there’s a monster there
It bides it’s time in its darkened lair
But its itching to crawl out and feel the air
And all the people who think they can see me
Take a step back now. Move your feet.
My metamorphosis into the dark beast
As on the life I knew, upon it I feast.
I will grow beyond the reach of your distant smile
Carrying mine, I’ll go miles and miles,