I don't know the things that I've been feeling.
I want to understand what I have done.
I try to comprehend the words that roll across my mind
but there's no clarity, no place to run.
I think I did the right things when I knew you.
I felt our souls connect when we were there
I knew the man you were and I was with you
I don't think that I reached to where you were.
I knew the pain you bore, the things that haunt you
I reached beside you, grasping for an end
We shed our blood and sweat and loved the moment
We spoke of virtue and we spoke of sin.
I can't escape the vapors of your memory
I look around, it lingers everywhere
So many dreams and plans became entangled
And now I pull them back from bitter ends.
I've tried to keep composure, keep my presence
I want to be the strong one in the crowd,
But when I think the tears have finally ended,
They seem to always come and find me out.